4 weeks to 6 months

My Family

My plan was to blog at least every four months but as you can see, I'm a little behind...but with good reason, my new job keeps me super busy.

First, I feel like I owe all stay at home moms an apology. One of my concerns about staying home was that I was going to be bored...I'm sure all my SAHM friends are laughing very loudly right now.

Mackenzie, Trevor & Rhylee

These three monkeys keep me from getting bored (:

Shortly after my last post, Rhylee had a check up with the pediatrician. While we were there,  the doctor had me fill out a questionnaire about postnatal depression. I was not concerned about "passing" because I felt fine.

To my surprise, the doctor came in and was concerned about my answers.  He encouraged me to talk with my doctor about the results. I have to say I was little offended......ok so yes I was a little emotional and yes I had some anxiety but I did just have a baby and I was functioning on little to no sleep on most days.

After I finished "venting" to Jarrod, he gently and lovingly said "I agree with the doctor." Being the calm rational person I am I said ok honey....NOT!! I won't get into the details but thankfully I'm still married (:

So I scheduled an appointment and talked with my doctor and he suggested that it wouldn't hurt to take anti depressants. He said he wasn't too concerned but thought that the medication would help keep my emotions in check. What was wrong with me? Was I not trusting in God enough? I had a husband who was helping me above and beyond anything I could have asked for and amazing friends and family who were always around hanging out and helping. So why was I depressed?

After a lot of prayers and some encouraging truth from friends I began taking the medication and started feeling much better.

Rhylee 4 mos

I was thankful for the help because we had a rough time with Rhylee between 2 and 4 months. Looking back it doesn't seem so bad but while we were in the midst of it I thought we'd never make it. Rhylee would cry for hours on end...we'd do everything we could to try and help her but nothing worked. And sleep...forget about it!

Jarrod was a life saver during this time. I'm not sure how he did it but he managed to keep everything from spiraling out of control around here. He would work all day, sometimes leaving at 2 am and not getting home until 7 or 8 at night, and come home and take care of Rhylee so I could get some sleep. He would clean up, do laundry and keep the kids so I could get a break.

And here we are now, 6 months later and all those issues seem like a lifetime ago (: We've finally started getting back into our routine. Rhylee is doing great and has become such an easy baby, praise Jesus (:

While I'm watching Rhylee's little personality grow, I'm learning so much about Trevor and Mackenzie. I've always been involved but being home full time with them has allowed me to get to know so much more about them.

Next month they'll start school, and I'll be their teacher. I'm a little nervous, ok let me stop lying, I'm scared to death, but I'm so excited!

I'm glad that I'm taking on the challenge of homeschooling because Trevor will be 16 this week and although he is very smart, his autism has made it difficult for him to learn essential social and life skills that he desperately needs. Being home with him has given me so many opportunities to help him with that.

So here we go......off on a new adventure (: